Recent changes in my lifestyle have thrust me into a spiral of unlearning everything I believed to be true about love.
All the high expectation, co-dependency, rules and regulations, find your other half to be whole garbage that has been force fed to billions of unsuspecting victims generation upon generation is paving the path to loneliness, disconnection and heartache.
By stepping outside of this old paradigm, I have experienced the richness of love unconditionally in all forms of abundance. The tunnel vision and focus to find 'the one', creates an unhealthy expectation within intimate relationships, inhibits personal growth and closes you off to the exponential forces of love in it's authenticity.
Allow me to elaborate, without fear or judgement...
My recent separation from a 13 year relationship, has been an incredible heart opener. At a time when my heart has been at it's most broken and vulnerable, I have come to be aware of all the love that surrounds me. Love that has in fact always been there, but it was not visible, and could not be accessed, as the 'rules' dictated (I believed) that love came from my partner, and only my partner.
Having this insight, has manifested new foundations whereby any relationship I choose to have with another being is an intimate one. It is a loving connection that is shared between us. And I am not just talking about sex! A simple cup of tea with a friend is now transformed into a soul nourishing experience, where I am offering my presence and love, and open to receiving the same in return (inhale and exhale). Routine experiences and conversations with my children are no longer mundane, but mindful and creative loving pieces of the puzzle that will build a platform for their own journeys. A hug is no longer a brief awkward moment of conditioning, but a consenting and beautiful connecting of toroidal magnetic fields between two people. Sexuality is embraced and expressed unashamedly. It is no longer about a quick fuck to release tension in life's daily grind, but two (or more!) whole beings coming together to share love in it's most physically intimate expression. Taking a shower becomes a place to breathe and connect with self. Honouring and loving my body as it is, bringing awareness to any parts of my being that are lacking in energy. A place where random acts of kindness and tiny miracles manifest each and every day, each and every moment.
I choose connection. I choose intimacy. I choose love. In all things....always.
I understand that my sharing may be too much for some, and this is good. I can love you, wherever you sit, without the need for it to be understood, accepted or reciprocated, just because.
At a time when society expects me to be broken and alone, I am deeply nourished, empowered and in love. This is my heartfelt wish for each and every being on our enchanting blue planet.
In love and gratitude...xxx